and I never knew your name

for I was just a bastard child

born of love and shame

A bastard child made from love

but told a bitter lie

I always knew that I was different

but never quite knew why

People whispered when I was near

"You know she's not his child"

they left me with an aching pain

and guilt unreconciled

I felt the shame they placed on me

as if I were to blame

for being born into this life

a child without a name.

When the truth came out I searched for you

I had to end the lies

and from the moment I first saw you

the pain showed in your eyes

Thirty years you thought of me

and thirty years you cried

thirty years you lived with guilt

and secrets locked inside

Forgiveness came so quickly then

we shared a bright new start

till the day they came to me

and ripped my world apart

Once again you were leaving me

but this time not by choice

I heard the pain and suffering

in your weak and frailed voice

I'm sorry for the lies we told

and the pain of those unkind

but always know my little one

"You were always on my mind"